I am officially hitting that point where personal life issues are suddenly very large and client issues are converging and draining in such a way that I’m having little mini breakdowns when no one is looking. And sometimes when they are. Even just sitting and doing nothing requires a massive amount of energy to keep from hyperventilating or crying. It’s to the point of “not sustainable” again.
And I have no idea what to do about it while I wait (literally, I have it scheduled) for my insurance-covered backup. And I’m not getting anything from my GP without already seeing someone who specializes in mental health, because that’s just a better idea. And a medication isn’t going to make some of the sudden and yet not sudden overriding events go away, make my supervisor more available in a crisis situation, or change relationship dynamics that I’m not even part of yet still end up at my doorstep in ways that could alter my life.